One year to the day, at probably this hour too, perhaps a tad earlier, I launched aadivaahan.wordpress.com
It was an interesting beginning because I had meant to use the name Vivekanand, but the way wordpress had their sign-in, it became Anadianant’s blog. So I ran with it. Anadianant was my first web-handle (@hotmail) back when. It means without beginning or end. But I’ve felt called to be myself, in the open , more and more as the blog progressed. I’m Vivek and am comfortable to be associated with all my thoughts expressed here. Nothing to hide, no desire or urge to hide. Enough hiding anyways, yes?
I was joking at the studio yesterday that the average family’s living room carpet is one metaphorically lumpy affair, with all that’s dusted under.
Enough hiding out of fear. I’ve been in the system, was actually a State VVIP for around 18 months. if they want you, they will get you.
So not hiding, but merely stating considered points of view, some passionately felt, some deeply experienced and engaging in a healthy exchange of ideas with like minded (but not confirmationally biased, strong independent voices in their own rights) people from around the world.
It has been very very liberating.
A very big thank you to Zero Hedge. I cut my on-line teeth in Fight Club, not my style at all, but I found my feet on a board full some of the smartest minds on the web. Per capita? Guaranteed. And I started posting my “by-line”, a little hesitantly at first, but since they did not ask me to cease and desist, I made it my signature. And the exchanges, the learning and most of all, the many who’ve come by here….. made this out-post an in-post
I am not being in the least trite when I say I think of all the readers here as family. Think about that for a moment. What does one look for most in their exchange with the immediate and larger family? A sense of being understood. A sense of being “got”. And then look around at most bio-logical families…..
Unnnnnnyways, so here we are. A community of conscious seekers. Of challenging questioners. Of respectful listeners. Some of my old friends are here. The first person who met me through the blog is on his way from the Netherlands in less than a week for a two-week get to know Vivek, get to know India visit. Such an amazing feeling, can you imagine?
I have a deep sense of bringing a community on the ground somewhere, anywhere, manywhere. And the first steps are being taken.
And the project (A book, a DVD and a surprise or three)….. so enriching. Suddenly, a team. Enlightened 20 somethings all. I wish you could hear what I’m listening to right now. Soon!
And such a literal and figurative rolling thunder of signs, omens. Energies. Absolutely other-worldly, till you realize there is no such thing. Seamless exchange of energy, ideation, in-spiration. Guidance.
I am having the time of my life.
And as always, the rough and tumble of the internal dialouge, occasionally silenced in meditation, but always questioning. What is this? Why here? Why now? What is here and now?
Like Richard Bach said in Jonathan Livingston Seagull, take away space and all you have left is here, take away time and all you have is now….. and between here and now lies infinity. Okay, I added that last bit, but what is the reason for being? Is there as reason for being?
Are we all really equal till we really are? Is equality and it’s perception as such one and the same?
What pray is masculinity? Femininity? Are there axiomatic building blocks? At what point does the split begin to count?
What is the place of humanity in the grand mix? Were we really meant to be top-dog predators? Really? i mean look at us. The weakest per-capita of any species on the planet. Have you ever tried to kill a flea? The jumping kind? that is tough and tailored to it’s environment.
Look at us though. Can’t run, climb, bite, rip, kick, scratch, punch to save our lives…. except against each other.
And so we are the most self-destructive species. No other species kills their own in such numbers. It is insane. But logical too. We are cannibalizing as a species. We’ve out-grown it all.
I think we were the guardian species. The enlightened bringers of balance.
Till, somewhere, we lost our own.
The fall of man, as I see it, was the fall from guradian to predator status. Whenever it happened. How many ever pre-cataclysm civilizations ago.
And civilization as we know it, is based on death. Civilization, especially this malicious form of it, is a technological civilization with a strict set of interaction protocols, that have become ever more machine-like, losing their humanity. If you cannot admit you are a slave to technology, I have a techoholics anonymouse for you!
And since it has human greed and violence as “given”s in it’s philosophical bedrock, we were, in a sense “bound” to be at this juncture.
And in case my tone sounds gloomy, I welcome the opportunity to be here now. What a time. To see the end of death based, nihilistic negativism. To be a part of a new emergence. An innovation of the species.
There is an addiction that we have to give up, willingly. What might that be? An addiction to fear? Look at the dominant symbology of the day. Lady gaga and her ilk, the new Madonnas…. death-fetish is writ large in popular culture. Even the excessive sex-fetish is as much a death fetish, since sex and death are but two sides of the sphere, eh? A holy embrace. Yab-yum.
We are addicted to fear. Even the excessive laughter we see today, pumped many times over by the famous sit-com laugh-track…..That kind of manic laughter is a release of the same root energy that is the root of fear.
And fear springs from surprise. Cognitive dissonance. The known is never fear-inducing. We know our limits well for the most part.
But the un-known. The surprise….laughter spits out the excess energy built up by the cognitive dissonance induced by the “punch” line. Get it? The punch-line shocks out the laughter, which is cognitive dissonance embodied. Very interesting, Gurdjieff pointed out, that nowhere in the bible does it ever say that Jesus laughed.
And we are addicted to laughter. Constant escape valve, a hiss-hiss for this cog-diss inducing world. Hahahahahaha.
ROTFL. Har de har…..
Fear is only the de-stabilizing cognitive-dissonance induced by the un-known.
So ridding of fear is a matter of making everything known. And the beauty is that there is a path to that place. Not fear-less, Un-fearing.
And that is to Know thy SELF. As with-out, so with-in. The more you are aware of your SELF, the more you know outwards, it just works.
It’s all spirals of energy, caught by something, con-densing (densifying) into the womb of their environment, but ultimately always to be un-bound again. And a gordian knot, slipping along the mobius strip of our existences, our real purpose being to un-tie it.
And the secret, an open one at that, for it has been said over and over, is awareness. Absolute, axiomatically complete awareness is the un-tying of the Gordian knot that keeps us on the path of constant for-getting.
And the key to awareness is breath. Dimensionally full breath.
Because breath is time. Ponder that. For “us” time begins with our first “breath” and ends with our last.
Time is breath. The faster you breathe, the faster it flies. See how industrialization has sped us up? Notice how many people are running? Why? To exhaust yourself? Running for exercise, such an in-sane, typically human, self-destructive practice.
In slowness, we gather quality, in speed we snatch quantity.
I’ll take quality over quantity any day or night.
Know your breath, know time…..your time. Knowing time is to flow, not fight. Aikido is such a beautiful analogy for this. We are alive with, and are depleted against. Makes perfect sense, does it not?
Breath too is such a beautiful metaphor. In-spire, ex-pire. Life and death, fullness and vacuum. Both sides wound, literally even. Our noses are shaped to spiral the air in. All the way in. The passage is a masterful construct of vortex flow. But of course right?
How was that for an anniversary ramble? I’ll not even go back and read it! Off to the studio for work on the tracks…
Breath…..breathe….awareness……understanding…….balance, flow……..back and forth… pendulum….. still it.
Thanks to everyone here, for reading, for your attention and energy.
Much love all around,