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Bloo Vorigin?

July 22, 2021

Someone asked, why Blue Origin?

Blue is the throat chakra, our “spatial” limiter, our blue atmostfear.

Origin is the red, base, root chakra. Throat to base thrusting rocketry, opposite Kundalini force, negative. Aka Kundabuffer.

The Dickhead sitting in a Dickhead, blasting off with it’s ass on fire, into the Blue Origin, soon after a Virgin (a Galactic one at that) had “Spread Her Wings/Legs” in “Space”, just daze earlier.

That space is between our collective ears. Our space of attention being consumed by this farce.

You think Penile and Pineal are sorta homonomish for a reason?

You think there a reason there is such a concerted media effort to make men (and women) think Penile instead of Pineal?

Cock-A Doodle. Cock-A-Whoop, BAD minton Cocks, cock your hole (Indianish for cork your hole), Dick…

All those Obelisks the world over are the Penis of the Bull, thrusting upwards and it’s adherents ardent worshippers of Taurus, Mars-Arms, War..That is why Land, or “Real” Estate is King. it is the domain of the Bull. The Baa’el.

Notice that in the animal kingdom, suddenly the bull isn’t getting any. 99% of global cattle birth is via artificial insemination.

And the Bull is both Rotting and Rutting. I can see it where I live. These proud Brahma bulls, immense power exuding from them, walking around, unloved because all the cows are in human hands.

The male-female divide has been pushed to the max, right about now, just as the collective male rut energy leads to the ability to spark violence. A male in real rut is oblivious to pain, either suffered or caused.

Same goes for high testosterone women, of which the number is probably at a global all time high.

No coincidence either that women are finally in the fighting killing arms of many nation’s armed forces.

When the creator becomes the destroyer, you can bet something big, a change, upheaval etc. is nigh πŸ™‚

This is how far and deep, in my view, the general interconnect and the warp and the woof woof of the world goes.

All the great civilizations died in the fires of an explosion of hummo sexualit y.
Hummo sexu ails make the fiercest warriors, all generals know this.

And this is how empire crumbles. This time around too, they have the global masculine by the cock. Narcissing in gyms, self adoration replacing self love. BIG difference.

So yes, it’s about as in yer face as it is ever going to get. The bloo origin flight was a joke even in what was shown. Hilarious. It was so staged that it was frightening that any sane human thought it was real.

Pays to pay peripheral attention to all things.

Deep dives are reserved for the self.

Look at this magnificence πŸ™‚

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Hey Guyz, you’ve been bluepiled!

July 19, 2021

So, here is a little insight that should make men really really pay attention to what is being normalized for them.

June 1998 was a sad month for Masculinity. It was the month that the FDA approved p fizer’s viagra for public sale. Safe for use.

And who was it’s first spokesperson?

Senator Bob Dole. Good old, insider, do nothing Senator Veteran one armed spokesperson for an erectile dysfunction drug?

The key was disabled and veteran/ Why? Because anyone with a thinking mind knows instinctively that war torn humans have huge PTSD issues (born on the 4th of July etc.) with concominent sexual dysfunction.

Hey boyz, no need to deal with your massive underlying trauma based issues, just pop a pill and screw like a donkey.

What else happened? An entire older generation of men, settling into a simpler, asexual existence, were suddenly, at the risk of a priapism induced heart attack, back into the fecking market.

Gramps getting naughty again….bam…huge hit on a reservoir of innocence, the elderly.

Porn + Viagra and uncle was in heaven … again.

I hope you can see, like I can, the earthquake like effect this would have on social dynamics?

What else happened since 1998? WAR after WAR after WAR.

And what do wars produce? Destroyed males. Unable to perform, so traumatized. Booming sales in Afghanistan, Kashmir, Iraq, Palestine….my my, what a surprise eh?

And so added to the trauma of war, this new social upheaval. Any surprise that prostitution is a booming business in all war torn areas? You see how it goes?

All by the introduction of a little blue pill.

You see the symbolism there? Hundreds of millions of men have been taking the blue pill since 1998.

The blue pill locks you below the throat Chakra…

Below that, One of the two can “Function” at full potency at any given time.


The very personification of duality in a male.

The SPINE, a skeletal element, bones, with a central cavity and two spiraling nerve bundles or snakes and their crossover points, the Chakr system.

The PENIS a fleshy element, capable of transforming into a BONEr, has a central cavity and spiraling musculature.

The blue pill takes you to the PENIS. Guess where it steals blood supply from?

So Viagra broke the global male spine…

And thus the abject inability of the global masculine to rise in the face of what is going on….

We are alchemical refractories. Finely balanced chemical soups. trillionths of ppm and decimal places of ph change can shift entire realities.

This is how subtle wars are fought.

DON’T take the blue pill πŸ˜‰ OR the Red Pill.

Or any pill at all because Pill is mostly ill 🀣

And it pays to remember too that in dealing with such a subtly and finely balanced system it take subtle and fine moves, changes, exercises to really effect change.

So that one day you can explode like a kalari fighter, at will, no chemical help needed, thank you very much…

Behind Kalaripayattu lies a searing tale of blood and fire

See Locks!

July 4, 2021

The ENTIRE digital world works on Clocks. C-Locks.


You see the time, you Watch your Watch and you are Locked.

Into external time.

Which does not even exist. Think a 100,000 people in a stadium, each heart beating at it’s own pace, everyone breathing to their own need/rhythm.

But a C-Lock locks EVERYONE into the same rhythm. When there were no watches, you looked up at the sky and thought…ahhh…mid-day-ish, early-evening-ish…

Now, everyone in the same Time (Containment) Zone looks down at their hand/phone and says…It’s 12:46 PM on Sunday the 4th of Jewlie!

What a great way to “Synch” people, hmmmmm?

0630, alarms all over India (we are a single time zone nation), millions upon millions upon millions…go off together. Can you say forced synchronization?

Millions and millions of Indian enthroned at 0645, straining together. Literally, funny as that sounds…

We are all marching like souldiers in an army, just cannot see it in real time.
And the Conductor (so CHARGED, Conductors are) is TIME.

Tick Tock. Instead of Lub Dub.

And the most frenetic urge has been to re-discover how to divide time, more and more.

Hurts, Mega Hurts, Giga Hurts, now even Terra Hurts.

Of course it does.

The machine is not slowing down, it’s speeding UP. The modern internet and computer are ONLY possible on the backs of ultra-precise C-Locks.

Imagine now, at this very instant, all the 2.3 Giga Hurts computers spinning together all over the world.

You see how much cohesion via TIME awareness it takes to run the Matrix?

The MA-Tricks is basically Time Externalized.

And there’s your prime battle.

Slow down. Breathe slower, deeper…toss the Watch and C-lock.

Listen to the Lub Dub.

As Simon and Garfunkel famously sang:

Slow down, you move too fast,

You’ve got to make the morning last…

Curvy-Linear Time…Oooooh my!

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June 19, 2021

Imagine having endless silences with your world.

Imagine the power of never spurting, blurting, often hurting…

Imagine then the power in the words of some one who spoke only 12 words a year…

How carefully would they choose their words and how powerfully would they issue forth. Especially if the stored power in all that silence came from a calm, centered place.

Thatastu!So mote it BE!

Imagine the sages who it is said could create physical stuff with their words alone (masters of nada yog, the yog of sound).

Imagine that they said one Thatastu every 10 years.

And for the rest were in blissful silence, at ease with their world.

It’s not an impossible feat to achieve if one thinks about it objectively. 10 years of silence. S

o Much POtential energy….the long vipassana.

And then, Thatastu!

Listen and Silent are anagrams for good reason.

We have been taught to over-excite ourselves as the baseline of our existence. Frazzled senses, especially since the full frontal(lobe) assault of Tell A Lie Vision.

And given that we are so clearly at a turning point in humanity’s known history, unprecedented really…

That we should choose times of absolute silence…

Extended periods if possible, If we cannot quiet the chatter long enough, how will our inner guiding whisper get a hearing?T

he fork in the road, long foretold, is upon US!

In-tuition is a muscle. Look at the word, inner teaching.

I learned a brilliant method of quietening the mind via Osho, will record a video about it soon.

Meanwhile, shhhhhhhhhh…. πŸ˜‰

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The Edge of Exist-Tense!

June 18, 2021

The journey in-wards (in-words) is THE journey every “Arrived” soul, what we call bodhisattvas, have spoken of, shared about, made millions of parables and idioms to explain…..

And yet, in what is very much a sign of the times, we have externalized everything. Our most intimate thoughts are externalized right here as an example.

Hindus deify external gods, so much. All day, every day, bowing and scraping in front of externalized gods. And then saying Aham Brahasmi (I am Brahma).Tat tvam asi (Thout art that)…. what greater “hint” do we need to see where they are pointing to for the source of all divinity?

Even the bible, with all it’s coded parables, is basically an astrotheological telling of the Awakening process, where our essence (Veera, Ojas, Shukra (Venus)) is alchemically sublimated up the seven Refinements. The book of revelation is the telling of the process of full Kundalini Awakening.

As without so with-in…. even that tells us that all we are worshipping on the outside is to be equally worshipped within.

Point being that everything points to an inward journey bringing the sweet attainment that this life was given to us for. As is clear all around us, life is NOT a lazy float down-river, but a Salmon-esque, gravity/density defying swim upstream.

Those hungry bears are the things that send you tumbling down the hill.

I’m sure you see the analogy.

The thing that I realized, just today, is that in some ways, this journey in is like going to the tight (winding in) journey on a coiled spring.

As you go deeper, it gets denser and tighter. Imagine, if you can, the amount of density held at the core of this coiled spring of life, that it sustains for our lifespan.

When the gordian knot that holds that center opens, the coil, un-coils and we get, so to speak, de-spirited.

Imagine then, what it will take, in terms of whatever force it is that is used to go in….to go, PUSH into that denser and denser space….

And that Gordian Knot is a place in our body, obviously connected to our umbilical cord…still there, holding it (our Spirited life) together.

That core was set when the FLASH of conception occurred.

Given the immense force held in that knot/space, it’s no walk in the part to get there. All the extreme physical arts try to bring the entirety of self into a single point.

There is no la dee dah, I’ll just saunter into enlightenment path. Regardless of your awesome karmic past, it’s in the reaching that final Density/Destiny part that you ‘broke” …. and you’re back, another try at building that much life force going inwards.

Can you imagine how self-empowering such a process is?

We can see the results of this externalized in narcissism and body building etc. and internalized, giving the person an Aura/Charisma and an ease of being…

This was “revealed” to me very clearly 17 years ago and has been my personal practice. It’s the hardest Un-work I do. It’s a singular goal, I want to touch, with all my senses simultaneously, that Gordian knot.

There is a “Practice” for this…Very enlightening…

The inward (Word) path my frenz. Yes, I know, I used a LOT of buzz speak there, but some of it so apt.

Why word?

Why has the hardest and yet seemingly un-solvable quest been the search for the lost WORD?

Because that name is un-utterable, that concept is un-describable and the riddle is meant to be un-solvable.

Till it isn’t.

And the path to the answer is the coiling spring with-in.

This, is edge of existence…

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Sense It ivity!

June 14, 2021

An animal in his natural habitat, is almost always on.

Even sleeping, half an ear is cocked, trained to hear specific sounds that might suggest a threat.

Ever noticed a deer when they are at ease and eating grass, in a herd. Their tails move constantly. Back and forth, back and forth.

I heard, on KPFA, decades ago, a brilliant young biologist/botanist/researcher, who had studied PTSD in humans and animals, describe that the shaking of the tail was for the constant release of nervous energy that the deer had to build up in waves…always alert to TAKE OFF! 10-15 feet in the first bound….but for all the times it does not get used, it “shakes” it off through it’s ever twitching tail.

Humans, he averred, had lost all such mechanisms to balance out their hormones.

Our adrenaline control valve is completely out of whack.


Simple, the harder we built our shells (Houses/Cars/Clothes, Boots etc.), the softer we became. Like a tortoise, it’s obvious and makes most sense to have a soft, pliable interior in a hard shell.

And in the process, with our interaction with ever smoother surfaces, gone is the tactile hapticness of touch.

Here is an interesting mental exercise, and please take a few seconds to close your eyes and do it.

Imagine, for as many seconds as you can legitimately hold the vision, that your sense of smell suddenly became a superpower, like a dog’s. Of you could see like a cat or an eagle.

Now think of the time you’ve seen a cat “Pussyfoot” over a path full of loud crunchy, dry leaves and make not a sound. Imagine the feel in those paws. Now imagine you felt the world with that much spectrum/intensity/finesse.

Any one of those would change our ENTIRE existence.

That is how much technology has de-sensitized us and given us petroleum based, “Haptic” pretenders in return for feel, machine designed perfumes for smell, noise cancellation headphones for the grind….I or you could go on.

Hyper-sensitivity or extra-sensory perception can only come AFTER our sensory perception is operating at designed optimum…

Aside from trying to build physical strength, we should work too on refining our senses. Like everything else, refinement is a practice, usually of heating and cooling, and beating….in cycles πŸ™‚

It takes doing.

The great instrumentalists have hyper sensory touch, so they can tease their instrument, while others merely play.

Imagine where this would take love making. Every contact feeling like the first contact, because your environment or your practice demand that you stay hyper sensory.

And the first step in refinement is to stop pouring new toxins in to the mix. What we hear, smell, Eat, Look at, ponder, Drink…..

But we all know that.

Imagine, too, that you had perfect control on your adrenaline control valve, so no situation would ever overwhelm you. All animals have it.

Fully into what they are doing, fully aware, pushing boundaries of pain and tolerance…

We would lose a lot of our fear if we had control of our ACV.

We are fearful because we hardly ever react with the correct hormone proportions flowing through our blood.

It’s all off. We have totally changed our threat perception index by building sturdy shells around ourselves.

Okkkay, I’m drifting, but you get my drift, so I’ll just


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Hobbit, hobbit!

June 11, 2021

The great lie of history has been un-earthed again and again….but the system will never change as long as a majority of the populace gets the required indoctrination in the school system.

ALL of academia, even in the most famous institutions are either dimwits or sold out.

For those who get it, what is written below, by a rogue historian, is mind-boggling. I’ve known this to be true for over a decade now…


It has been the assumption by many of those in the world of letters that Professor Tolkien’s discovery of The Red Book of Westmarch (and other writings) in the early 20th century was not so much an exhumation as a fabrication.

That is, like James Macpherson and the famous controversy of Ossian two hundred years earlier, Mr. Tolkien was considered not an historian but a fiction writer.

But unlike Ossian, the existence of Mr. Tolkien’s sources was never even questioned: they were dismissed by all but the most credulous (or faithful) readers out of hand. The documents were believed to be a literary device; almost no one took them seriously. This saved Professor Tolkien the trouble of proving his assertions, but it has led to serious misunderstanding.

It is surprising that no one found it at all strange that a professor of philology with no previous fiction writing credentials, at a premier university, should be the one to ‘imagine’ an entire history, complete with vast chronologies and languages and pre-languages and etymologies and full-blown mythologies.

No one thought to ask the question that was begged by all this: if a previously unknown cache of historical documents of a literary nature were to surface anywhere on earth, where would that be? At the top of the list would certainly be the archaeology departments of Oxford or Cambridge.

Who else is still digging in the British Isles? Who else cares about such arcane (and provincial, not to say insular) matters? And who would these archaeologists consult when faced with unknown languages in unknown characters in untranslatable books?

They would go first to their own philologists in their own universities, to experts on old northern languages.

This is exactly what Mr. Tolkien was. Coincidence? I think not. And when those discoveries were found to be of the nature they wereβ€”positing the existence of hobbits and elves and dwarves and dragonsβ€”is it any wonder the archaeologists washed their hands of the whole mess, never wishing to jeopardize their careers by making any statement about the authenticity, or even the existence, of their great find?

One would expect them to make a gift of it all to the eccentric philologist who believed in it, though it was not in the least believable. To let him hang himself out to dry in any way he saw fit. Who could have foreseen, after all, that he would publish it to ever greater wealth and fame, and never have to explain a thing? The strange turns that history takes, not even the historians can predict.

The truth is that The Red Book (or a copy of it) did, and probably still does, exist. Nor is it the only surviving document, or trove of documents, from that part of our history. Other sources have recently been unearthed, in related but separate locations, that confirm this.

It is true that the ruins of Westmarch were long thought to be the only existing repository of hobbitlore and the history of the elves. And it is also true that the present-day location of what was then Westmarch is still under a cloud.

Only Professor Tolkien, and perhaps one or two from the archaeology department at Oxford, ever knew its exact locus. But, as I said, other fortuitous digs have yielded new evidence that Westmarch was a real place, and that The Red Book was an historical fact.

It is known to all of the wise (in hobbitlore) that Westmarch was only one of many population centers in the Northwest of Middle Earth. Bree, Buckland, Hobbiton/Bywater, Tuckborough, and several others in fact predated the settlement at Westmarch, and were not eclipsed by it until later in the Fourth Age.

What is not as well known, because it was not included in The Red Book or accompanying artifacts, is that other settlements to the north and south of the Shire also gained pre-eminence later, and were therefore the natural repositories for important documentation.

The wealth of material since discovered in these other sites not only rounds out our understanding of the Third Age, it often fills in gaps in the first two ages. And, most importantly, it supplies us with completely new information about the Fourth Age.

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Absolutely Relative…

June 11, 2021

Gender/Sexual/Identity crises happening right now is no coincidence.

As a time of “Absolutes” comes up, they have people drowning in the “Relative” goop.

Living in the “relative” is easy. One can always scoot into a convenient corner. Like a chameleon, one is free to change colours, beliefs, patterns, sexes…..anything at all…. to be safe or un-attacked.

But then the old adage kicks in first…If you stand for nothing, you’ll fall for anything and everything.

And so, as the un-veiling happens, it happens at every level. Everything is going to be exposed, INCLUDING US!

How could it be any other way? Apo-Calypso is for all and everything.

The great wheel enters new territory, the old rules don’t work here. Old skin is not needed here. Saturn, upcoming is the snapback to order. But not order in the sense of stuckness and immovability.

Order in the sense of the grand order, on which this sentient universe we experience has been built.

All the “relative” shite that began with Jewsuit science, Ein-Shit-Stein and relativity (your just a speck on a speck on a speck, so you do not matter) right down to hey, gender is relative, culture is relative , you are relatively meaningless in the grand scheme…. the great jewsuit lie of history, language, science, engineering….It’s all coming crashing down.

Absolute anyways means Ab-Solute, the perfect Solvent.

We may or may not live to see it (though I suspect we will) but we are in the “one” or the larger re-set, the re-set that wipes out this corrosive layer of relative nothing-ness …

And we have a Tabula Rasa, to once again sing our songs.

In the grand debate of objective vs. subjective, the great stone monuments stand in mute testimony to what “wins” in the end.

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Behind the Big Blue…

June 8, 2021

Even notice that our physical limits are Blue?

Blue Sky and deep Blue Sea.

We can make but shallow dives and soars into either minus our machines.


And of course it goes deeper.

The throat Chakr, known as the Vishuddhi Chakr, is Blue. Vishuddhi means Ultra Purification.

So whatever passes through a functioning Vishuddhi Chakra is the sublimation of speech into the electro-etheric stuff of thoughts, further sublimated into a single tone and then into silence. But it is the silence of the unstruck sound, the Anahata, the heart Chakr.

Of course it has to be a paradox, if it was explainable in this tongue, it would be here.

Anyways, back to the point, Ultra Purified matter will only pass through a fully functioning Vishuddhi Chakr.

And then see our collective voice…..the loudest ones, the lying media, the lying corporate honchos, the lying bankers, the lying newsmen and women and things….

Think of how many lies are told in todays world. The entire commercial complex is a complex of lies.

Stuck at Blue.

So the only way to open your Vishuddhi Chakr is to start living in Sat (The IS, Now, Here ness), which is most of Satya (Truth)….

And you can take it from me, or not, but that truth needs speaking by a pure tongue, from a pure heart, from a pure Hara (Solar Plexus)….the 7 step inner alchemical distillation of life force (Ojas or the essence of semen in men and controlled ovulation by women) into Essential Silence.

Cannot be hunched, slouched, doubtful, unsure, hesitant, scheming….none of that.

It is Don Juan’s TOTALITY. Nothing less.

Beyond The Blue lies Indigo, the deep blackness ringed by light like the annulus of a total Solar Eclipse. Ajna Chakr…

And then the Violent Violet, because that final release is not easy. It’s not flowers and hosannas…it’s the wielding of the sword that Miyamoto Musashi spoke about….Instantaneous, spontaneous, complete….

That’s totality Squared, like 110%

Courage is the muscle that wields that sword….

What is the courage muscle and how do you work it?

Sit on that one for a bit πŸ˜‰

The heaven’s show us the way, so often…

Ajna Chakr!

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May 28, 2021

When the time to strike comes, it will upswell from within…one smooth, powerful wave of action tipped e-motion/motion.

There is no mind, no time, no urge, no hate, no guilt, no hesitation, no weakness, no fear, no doubt…

Anything, ANYTHING less is a total and abject waste of life-force/energy….

And yes, I say this after 40+ years of tilting at windmills πŸ˜‰ Me and my hoss, De Nile…

Call me battle suppled…

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Resistance is Futile!

May 27, 2021

Resistance IS Futile….

Most useless part of any circuit from an energy perspective, it just burns up power and releases it in the form of heat.

And that heat has to be absorbed away from the system so as to not overheat things.

Electronics, no surprise here, is totally analogous to biology, our life etc. in a very fractal and one-to one manner.

So in any system, which has a perfect electrical analouge (some group of people are the creators (battery), some people are the modifiers (transistors), some or all are consumers (resistors) etc., some are the transports (Interestingly called Buses), and then there are the mechanical systems, also similarly analogous)).

Everywhere, you want to have the LEAST RESISTANCE POSSIBLE.

The frictionless system.

So, in a perfect analouge to “Protests” and such forms of resistance, we individually and collectively lose power and very little, if anything is gained, especially in the long terms.

The loving sixties did nothing to quell America’s appetite for war in the coming decades, it perhaps helped end a brutally unjust Vietnam war by a little bit, if any.

Resistance is futile.

The finest martial artist I have ever known in person, was an older Chinese student in my MBA course in the US. He was perhaps 63, looked like he was made from porcelain, was a Tai Chi master and you COULD NOT lay a finger on him if he did not want you to.

Tai Chi is the super-conductive, zero resistance martial art…all rotational, oval flow patterns…. his hands were everywhere at once, always forcefully but gently guiding my boxing/jabbing hands away. And I was trying….my hardest.

So this is the reason why we’ve always been told Resistance is futile, but not why….

Just disconnect from the system to the extent possible….. and guide the unwanted firmly away….

But like any other skill, it takes practice πŸ˜‰

Just remember, RESISTANCE is FUTILE!!!

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Meridian Prime…

May 25, 2021

Why TF do we blindly accept the PRIME MERIDIAN as we’ve been sold it, in Europe? Are people even aware of the wars fought over it?

The great Anglo/French battles were primarily over who “Owns” the prime Meridian.

Used to be in Paris, magical, occult city. Forcibly moved to the UK.
Earlier, France was looting/raping/Pillaging the world.

Suddenly the UK became the land where the sun never sets (yes yes, I know, empire wise, but the truth is WHO OWNED THE PRIME MERIDIAN) and took said rape/pillage to the next level.

This is more time-lord battling.

GMT and the world’s C-Locks revolve around IT.

Please note the KEY year of 1666 when all this malarkey was happening.
Geodesics, ley lines, time…. C?

Below is how you roll out a mega occult ceremony to try and take over the world without firing a shot.

The astronomers of the French Academy of Sciences, founded in 1666, managed to clarify the position of El Hierro relative to the meridian of Paris, which gradually supplanted the Ferro meridian.

In 1666, Louis XIV of France had authorized the building of the Paris Observatory.

On Midsummer’s Day 1667, members of the Academy of Sciences traced the future building’s outline on a plot outside town near the Port Royal abbey, with Paris meridian exactly bisecting the site north-south.

French cartographers would use it as their prime meridian for more than 200 years.

Old maps from continental Europe often have a common grid with Paris degrees at the top and Ferro degrees offset by 20 at the bottom.

The Meridian Room in Paris…

Fire in the Sushumna!

May 23, 2021


So, all around me, I find people who have had their “Kundalini Awakenings”.

Breathless exchanges of tinglings here and buZZings there…. if only the process was so simple… yet far more powerful men/women of yore did deep practices, went into the jungles/mountains, spent years and years in Sandhya/Kriya….

And yet, we’ve been made to believe that somehow, in this most polluted of times, in every sense of the word, there is somehow a special dispensation for us and that we can, with simple imaginings, some breath-work, maybe a whole lotta DMT/Aya, can somehow bound up the ladder of ascension.

I have been through the cycles of awakening and the inevitable fall because it was never built on a strong foundation.

Then I got the message from Devi herself, that this is all futile without having a pure vessel.

And when Devi means pure (Shuddh) she means PURE.

Root level, elemental purification is called Bhut Shuddhi.

A simple analogy….if your flute is full of mud, what tunes will you play on it?

From the perspective I’ve been given, if you are not working on purifying yourself as step one, you will rise only to fall again and again. And you will hurt yourself more and more in the process, getting further and further out of alignment and the possibility of a true awakening.

Luckily, the required purification is quite obvious, but really a long process. A life time of gunk will take many years to cleanse. And no, a real guru cannot give you this now easily handed out “Shaktipath” and jump start your process. If someone tells you they can, they are lying to you.

It takes doing and more doing, release and more release, fasting, kriyas. all of it.
Else, you are selling yourself short and will definitely be lost in this forest again and again.

Get real.

They say the most difficult task for any human is a true, honest self-assessment.

You think you have a stronger game going than, say, Osho? Look at his life and how miserably he died. And he was an awakened master…

All your tinglings and vibrations are the self fooling the self.

Bhut shuddhi is step one.

Fire or Ice? πŸ˜‰

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Knock Knock…It’s all lies!

May 21, 2021

So this has come knocking into my space and asked to be said.

And it resonates, so here it is. A stream of consciousness……pardon the ramble πŸ˜‰

All the great stories we have been sold(told) about great wars being fought over a single woman, are all blatant lies or just pure fiction.

The hand that is puppeteering this current show has had it out for the real feminine for a long time. So scared are they of the original G, the big G, the ProGenerater, the Creatrix, the X that marks THE G Spot.

What better way to demean it than to attach it’s mysterious Beauty Power with oversold tales of giant passion, ensuing death and destruction, just for these two people to be able to have legal sex?

Wait, there is more. There is also a narrative being pushed to show our ancestors to be somehow more uncivilized, feral, slave to their passions…ransacking entire kingdoms, killing thousands…all over beauty and sex? And thus make our thin veneer technological civilization seem somehow more civilized. I mean, how much more civilized can it get that western allopathic medicine get’s to practice white-coat murder (iatrogenic deaths) in plain sight….

Heck, I was lucky enough to get a good sentient decade and a half with my great grand parents…. they, and their entire extended generations were just different, you know? They exuded a different understanding of the world, a depth, a maturity, a waaaaaaaaay slower pace…..most obviously waaaay above their root chakras in every way…. Pious….clean, smelt so good πŸ™‚

And this is just in my life time. Just imagine their grand parents. Those were some serious-life people. Not easy to be pushed around, at all. Aflame with the confidence of their knowledge of the holy books. Really something to behold that confidence.

And two generations before that were the men who knew all four books verbatim, literally and figuratively…

And you are telling me that with these kind of known ancestors in just the last 100 years, that a millenia or more ago, people went to fight for a king, possibly die, or perhaps rape, pillage and loot….just so he could get a woman?

Helen of Troy? A great parable, yes, but a reality? No way.

Those were the people that were busy building the great monuments that we stand in awe of today.

Those monuments got built in TIMES OF MUCH GREATER RESONANCE.

That is why our modern monuments are ghastly stabs of steel and glass, just engineered to go higher, a dying grasp of the cabal of babel for the hand of god.

Modern UnArchitecture is speaks to the lack of resonance in todays world.

So, to close the loop, because I could go on….

In our very near and known history, people lived lives that were deeper, rooted, devout, sensible, natural, unfearing….etc.

These were not people who would go fight a war over a woman for their king. All of these great stories have been made to jezbel-ize feminine energy in the minds of men. And it’s clearly worked.

I say we kick all this to the kerb, search for the essence of what has survived and vibrate it up again.

Oh, and given the amount of ritual and the constant rites and acts of purification, it’s very safe to say that these people did not live in their root chakras, at all. I saw it. Any my grandfather lived to be 96. Maternal Great grandfather lived to be 97….

I am, unabashedly, the great Anti-Roman-Tic…

The Anti-Date to a Dote!


This was a 150 years ago. Even the way you dressed allowed a certain pace to your life…which is why the machine has everyone in tights.

Oh, and while we are at it, when adn why did men give up wearing headgear, SO MUCH a part of every older culture and fashion. World over….

Brahmin Family from the 1850’s…I don’t think you messed with them…Β πŸ™‚

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Light at the TOP!

May 17, 2021

Sometimes, obvious is obvious, Hmmmm?

The way this realm is set up, the higher you go, the less you can carry.
The sherpa on Mt. Everest can carry 2-3 cylinders of oxy-gen at most.

The lower down you come, the more stuff. Tents, sleeping bags, food, extra clothes.

Then beds, extra rooms, kitchen full of pots and pans, then heavy houses built of mud and stone and concrete and all the attendant heaviness that goes with it….Furniture, vehicles…..on and on….

In an as with-in so with-out world, it works the same way in what, for convenience, let us call spiritual ascension.

The “higher” you go, the less you will/can/desire to carry. Higher still and a sense of general detachment to all things and people and places comes in. Luckily, so does your ability to love unconditionally and without attachment.

The higher you go, the usually skittish wild animals feel safe/calm around you. Your zone of action and reaction is so close to being outside this realm, that there is no threat emanating from you.

I remember, for so many years, resisting the call of going higher. I drank a lot, played a lot, wanted to be materially material and always telling myself that the dry/drab looking life of asceticism was not for an extrovert like me.

Was I wrong on that count, big time.

The air up there is called rare for a reason.

Your senses become, as they should, so sensitive that a single piece of fruit can keep you in ecstasy for hours. A little of everything goes a long way. The “Wonder” muscle is strengthened….. so many ways life becomes filled with gratitude.

I hope the import and export of what’s being implied above is clear without explicit elucidation?

The eye of the needle is at the end of the narrow Road πŸ˜‰

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Fasting Soundly!

May 15, 2021

I’ve reached an interesting place.

I absolutely abhor some of the things I used to love, like classic rock as an example.

I heard some 12 year old whiz kid banging out A Led Zepplin song in note to tone perfection and I was feeling:

a) So bad for that child, that he was saying words he had idea about, in terms of their import. Aaaaaah aaaaah aaaaah aaaaah, aaaaah aaaah aaaaah aaaaah….I think you know the song….

b) Repulsed by the grating beat/bass, the too sharp and wailing guitar, all the blues blues blues all the time….. all of them make me feel that way now. Neutral at best, repulsed at worst. I can still listen to pink Floyd/Crosby Stills and Nash/Simon and Garfunkel with some degree of wonder, but anyways…Being that I have really taken a deep dive into sound, as a practice (toning, singing), as a deep meditation (Aum and Mantr) and of course, to use language like a master swordsman, not a bumbling novice; I consider myself a self taught (though very inspired by many actual teachers) Naad Yogi, Naad is the Unstruck sound, the ultimate paradox…. and I can say by direct experience and visible and palpable effects, that our “Sound Eating” should be paid as much or more attention to than what does into our mouths.

I also feel it’s worth turning these dissonant sounds/words from our lives at the very least, like a fast. Popular songs cut deep grooves into our minds/psyches as evidenced by the fact that a simple hook can bring back the entire song, word for word, note for note.

Imagine carrying the deep groove of even 50 songs…all dissonant, emblazoned into our mind-stuff… all part of the constant background chaos that drowns out our finer everythings.

As this highly produced and clearly downward pulling “music” left my sound and mind scape, I found my own tone. And I do own it. And my own rhythm. And the why and how of both those were closely linked to my actual physical structure and how my heart pulsed.

Pretty magical I’ll have to say.

So fast from produced media for 21 daze? No songs, no movies, no sick cartoons…nothing…. first, if you are a big consumer, you now have 21X2 = 42 hours of spare waking time to do something with your self.

Heck people are piling up on line certifications by the hour, imagine the possibilities.

If I had your undivided attention for 42 hours, I’d have you playing your first song on a guitar.

Always happy to open some doors of your perception to possibilities, which really are unending πŸ™‚ Let me know if you need suggestions…

Meanwhile remember Shastriya Sangeet, Gregorian Chants, The awe inspiring Buddhist Sutra recitation by a 1000 monks, the Hun Hur Tu…..

An AUdible cleanse, how about it?

I’ve been on one for 18 years now πŸ™‚

The wild symbolism of the image be-low is a tell, eh? In so many dimensions…..

The end of an era.

The fire of purification.

The Penis (Spine) erect and turgid, with the seed of what would come next…on and on….

The A and O,…

the Alpha and the OMega…

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Juggling Life!

May 14, 2021

Face it, every body wants to be RIGHT.

All the time. Every single time.

Would you ever want to be LEFT?

Errrr……Sinistram? ooooh, whassat?

The root of the word Sinister, or the Latin Sinistram is LEFT?

What about WRONG?


What is UP with that?

I think I’ve said this before, but the most obvious sign that someone or something made Omni Humanity take a HARD RIGHT, with some deep anti-Left programming, is the statistically impossible fact that 90% of the world is RIGHT Handed.

And of course all of us know that the Right hand and general Right motor system is controlled by the Left brain.

The orderly brain, the database brain, the mechanical brain, the Binary brain, the LAWgical brain… effect, the brain that would naturally take to a digital, binary based life.

Even forgetting all the transhumanistic implications of this rather staggering elephaunt in the room, a surprisingly small number of people in the world are genuinely, completely ambidextreous.

I say this as a person who strongly believe I am a natural left hander, gently but firmly guided in my early childhood, to conform to the right handed majority.
Luckily for me, I was given the gift of music and playing Guitar or drums involves an innate ambidextrousness. But there is still completely a dominant hand.

So I felt this imbalance all my life and somehow knew that my being able to physically juggle would be a big piece of the puzzle.

Yup, those were the no internet daze, so I squished many oranges, broke a few eggs, definitely hurt my toes with falling stones….but I just could not get it.

And then one day, with a little help from a friend, I did.

And that day, I became truly ambidextrous. Such a relief.

I also keep challenging my left hand, writing, autographing, drawing…..but again, it is well exercised in strength and variety with the guitar.

Why all this? What’s the import?

That the fastest way for you to find your center at this point, in a turbulent time/age, is from the outside in. To be able to Juggle life’s plates within, it helps to be able to juggle them without.

The three ball juggle was my portal and though it feels really easy now, it’s still a thrill to take three vastly dissimilar objects and make them dance.

As without, so within. Maybe your thing is Mirror writing, or painting with your left hand.

See too how they push us and push us and push us in a desired direction.

Di-Rect… Divided Rect Angle, Right Angle…

You are RIGHT if you are CorRect (Cor: With, Rect : Right Angle)

If you are Right, you have RECT-itude

Your RECT-um? Yes, it has a 90 Degree turn, which is why the squatting position is a natural way to poop. It opens the Rect-gate in your Rect-um.

That’s RIGHT!

So are your deals all SQUARE?

Are you on the LEVEL (Right with all things)…

How are your Three SQUARE meals a day?

See all that is RIGHT is Cor-Rect, has Rect-itude, is RECT-ifiable, you rectum controls your life, literally, imagine an outta control rect-ummmmmm…..(it gives the appropriate pause…..)….

Whereas LEFT is Sinister, is left behind, is BeReft, is Left Over…

You see, only a Left brain wishing to continue to exert it’s dominance, would de-sign such a language, full of slippery slopes and double, triple or even quadruple entendres . Inversions, downward pulling, like Fall-lowers…..

Undertakings and end-evers?

First there was the WORD my friends, I cannot over-stress this.

Train your mind to get beyond the split they have us in. A unified minds unzips the code constantly, it’s really true.

Train your non-dominant side with fun ways to link it with your brain/mind, musculature and skeletal system.

It will bring your presently not contributing brain into the mix. More art for the engineers and more order for the artist. Definitely more balance for all…

It’s the blend we need to not suck-seed.


The picture below was me about 3 years into juggling, probably 1998 or 9, walking a california beach with my dear friend Debbie Muga, and we met this magical man, learning chinese at the army school of languages there.

Within minutes he was juggling, amazingly and when I told him about my rather beginner level skills, he invited me to juggle with him.

It was magical and Debbie, who is a fantastic photographer, caught the perfection of it πŸ™‚

Left Right Left……Left, left, Left right left….

Influenced yet?

May 13, 2021

The fact that every “Influencer” has to act like they have a 9V battery up their ass when they talk on camera is gag-inducing and says a LOT about their intended audience.

Other side of the coin is that “they” want people to start behaving in this odd, over active fashion on camera and in real life…and so push these influencers in all their chosen and owned channels.

Either way, it’s pretty pathetic to observe and think about what it says as to where we are at.

Was just discussing similar things with a couple friend, the lady a firebrand “new pedagogy” teacher, him a hereditary land owner….was reminded of the famous Tennessee 8th graders test that appeared on line, which I would have failed miserably.

Interesting that as externalized vibrations have grown (all things electrical, which is now, of course, like a prison grid of harmful frequencies)….. our own internal vibration has collectively fallen.

Just like with the externalization of our innate divinity…. it’s been a net-negative for us, and pretty good to the externalized forms, if you see their wealth, grandeur, splendor etc.

It seems that we have to resist this relentless drag into an artificial construct with every fiber of our beings.

Now more than ever.

More and more, every day, you see Baudrillard’s vision come to life and reality fades and the map becomes brilliant, detailed, immersive, irresistible.

External resistance IS futile.

Inner resistance builds heat…Tapas πŸ˜‰

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May 11, 2021

Your AUTHORity flows from your being the AU-THOR of your own life story.

Au-THOR : The Golden Hammer

When you do anything with Au-Thor-ity, things happen, your word moves people and your will moves resources into action.

We are born to inherit our authority from our parents at the typical ages of 18-21 years, that time being our 3 developmental cycles of 7 and 6 years.

If the only thing a good parent did was to ensure that their child grew up into a being that could shoulder that self-authority, a job well done. That person can literally and figuratively take on the world.

This is what rites of passage in all ancient traditions were about.

I come from a Brahminical family of the highest cast. Pretty phenomenal epigenetics, since my 4 fathers knew all four Vedas, 4 huge, dense books, VERBATIM.

Legend goes that some of them knew them back-words and for-words.

That way, if one started a recitation forward and the other backwards, a certain rhythm is set up, which is monitored by a third man (yes, all men)…. that was to make sure, an algorythm, literally, to ensure that this spoken tradition was never corrupted.

In 2-3 generations before mine, 4 years of intense Vedic studies from 14-18, a time of strict self control, especially sexual urges, were deemed necessary. You learned, very early on, how precious your seed was. How magical is that? And sure enough, you did a recitation and argued the fine points of your study with the elders and got the proverbial nod to go for higher studies or a temple or whatever.

Women of course come with their continuous rites of passage built into their biological cycles.

So your AUTHORity flowed for amplified epigenetics overlaid with deep practice and effort.

And so, when you are an Authority, then people want your AUTO-GRAPH. Not your signature, your auto-graph.

And notice how dramatic and expansive all autographs are? Huge.

Now look at all the signatures we are made to do. In tinier and tinier boxes.

“No line outside the box”….

While an authority figure scrawls huge letters across your precious race card, entry ticket….whatever.

And that is why everyone is encouraged to “Think outside the BOX”….


It’s all a game, or even better, like an open book exam. All the answers are there, to be found, hidden in plain sight or parable!

It Behooves (oh yes, little diversion, lookit that word, if anything behooves us, we are hoofed creatures, ne? The continuous push into beast state)…..

So yes, it befeets us to find our authoritative voice and to wield our golden hammer like-wise.

Those are the two pillars of the manifestation game…

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May 9, 2021


Used to be the most natural thing.

In simpler, less mental times, there was a natural and large polarity between the sexes. You did not need 50 shades of Grey to get it up/wet…. that was the natural state.

But not like this. Not this rabbit like need to fornicate. This has been the result of a lot of programming AND, far more importantly as it turns out, too much un-natural light in our lives.

Literally, Spring sprang, loins melted, poles were raised….inside and out, it was merry+sexy season. After a cold winter of being covered up, hooray.

But this near 24X7 light smog has thrown our brain/body’s circadian rhythm right outta whack.

We are melatonin starved because it’s always light.

Even a phone’s blinking light is like a beacon in a dark room. And we are creatures of colour, light and frequency and thus deeply affected by it…

Then another programmed switchroo was lovemaking as a pre-sleep ritual. Worst time possible, but often the only time debt slaves really had.

Tired by the day’s work, food still sitting heavy in the belly, sleep is the most natural state. But TV you were watching got you all riled up, subtly of course….A

ll that suggestive sexiness on sitcoms and programs. Teddies and Santa’s and poles and what not.

Early morning is when the sap rises, most men have a natural erection as well, all concerned are relaxed…. but no.

Giddyup to an alarm.

Shit/Shag/Shave/Shampoo (this was the joke in the Navy), wolf down some calories and run.

Huge inversion. Tired men could not perform. Then tired and PTSD’d men could perform even less.

Meanwhile, the ill effects of the “Pill” were starting to kick in, all manner of reproductive and other hormonal havoc on the women who took it. This explosion of breast cancers is largely due to this .

Now you can buy Ru-486 over the counter in India.

Oops, no worries, pop a pill….hormonal HAVOC, enough to abort a pregnancy…. collateral damage be damned.

Just when the men, now even porn-worn, were simply flagging, along came Bob Dole and Viagra. Brilliant marketing, all vets with PTSD have ED….limp wrist globalist Dole sold a really harmful drug to his fellow vets … and it, pardon the pun, exploded.

You know where? in war zones. Kashmir, Iraq, Afghanistan…. generations of men terrorized by wars visited upon them…needed help.


That made me think of all the children born with the help of Viagra.

Suddenly you had the father, the son, the holy ghost AND sildenafil citrate.

Some shady alchemy there, at least to my eyes.

And then the tights. Women worldwide were bombarded with Tights=Sexy.

A trend that began with the 60’s generation has led finally to today, women who would cluck cluck at ancient chinese people putting their daughter’s feet in wooden clogs to keep them small but then buy their little girls bra and panties, and the boys tighty whities…..tight, shit enclosing diapers before that.

Then the girls enter a perma-tights phase it seems. Till they are 70 or dead or whatever.So bad for you in every way, for your skin, cleansing, circulation….but most of all, hips have disappeared. Breasts have disappeared.

Squeezed out of existence. People give shocked looks at Victorian corset, while wearing every manner of skin hugging garment possible.

Thongs even got into ladies’ asses, but they did not care. What an un-natural pressure curve for a woman. But there you are.

These are all direct assaults on human reproductivity.

Know what else narrowed hips due to a lifetime of wearing tights has done in India? 20+% of all child births in India are C-Sections. By the way, if you are born of a Cesarean Section, who do you think you belong to?

Anyways, the assault continues in so many ways it’s mind boggling.

Porn all over the place, morality destroying games, movies are all the rage…The system pushes you to overuse your most potent resource.

I have a lot more to point out about this.

Next time πŸ˜‰

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No Laffing matter…

May 7, 2021

Laughter, sLaughter, is the WORST medicine.

Oh mama, stirring ye ole hornet’s nest. Why would any sane human say a dumb thing like that?

Laugh your blues away.

Laughter therapy for unconscious hyper-oxygenation (reaaaaaaly bad for you)…makes you feel good, light….



First thing, since we are told all truths by allegory, who “Laughs” in the fables, myths and fairy tales? Never the wise ones. Never the elevated, en-lightened ones. Always the villain and his co-horts. This is true across all religions.

I wish I was the originator of such an insight, but it was that olde master Gurdjieff. He said in one of books, “Pay attention, Jesus never laughs in the Bible. Never once. He is spoken of as smiling many times, but never once laughter”.

And then I thought through all the great Indian tales, a plethora of them, filled with characters of every sort…it was true, only the villainous laughed, usually loudly.

This present obsession with laughter is a taught/learned one. Began with laugh tracks on the radio.

Literally, the entire audience was given a cue as to what to laugh at. So simple, eh? Seinfeld and his crew used it ever so subtly to trash any and all morality from it’s adoring audience (me amongst that audience, then, back in the late 90’s).

But really same with the three stooges, Laurel and Hardy, Popeye…..All of them normalized needless violence, a slapstick lifestyle and a kind of vapid humor that peaked with the disgusting mr. bean.

Same with monty python and it’s various spawns with the morality of that time.

We’ve been pilloried with laughter.

Can you see that?

We’ve been hammered over the head with deep psychology driven stand-up comedy…. I once watched about 8 years of “Best of” from a Black comedy channel and it went from mostly clean cut jokes to absolute filth in 8 years.

And the people, me included, laughed, because the cognitive dissonance of someone being that shameless in public, saying words that would get you slapped 15 years ago, out aloud, is huge.

And your dad and mom are laughing too…freaky!

Laugh tracks have dominated Radio and TV and Radio and TV have dominated a majority of lives since the early 1900’s.

So what is laughter? Again Gurdjieff to the rescue. Laughter is a peaking of cognitive dissonance. That is how a comic with timing gets you to laugh. It’s always an anti-climax—-trigger enormous cognitive dissonance…..a large amount of energy builds up that needs quick release to bring the brain back to balance.

Of course this brilliantly envisioned body uses the breath as the fastest and most powerful means to release energy. In bursts…. Laughter…

I’ve known this for about 16 years and have observed people deeply. The one’s with the deepest issues or internal splits, laugh the loudest and longest.

There is good reason that when laughter reaches it’s zenith, it sounds just like a gasping wail. Laughter is SLaughter.

But that inner gurgle, source feeling vibrational mirth, a spontaneous outpouring, is different.

I think the subtle among you will know exactly what I mean.

If equanimity, or mental stability is paramount in these weird, slippery times, may I suggest a laughter-fast?B

y the way, the letter J is a recent introduction to the Aleh-Bet. As in maybe 400 or so years old. What does that make Jesus? Ioses. Julius? Iulius…

And our Joke? A YOKE….a BAIT and SWITCH!


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