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Experiential Spirituality = Existential Crisis

August 24, 2010


For many of us, especially those that are on a quest of one sort or another, these times have to be the most difficult times for the practice of Experiential Spirituality.

Never in history has there been such a wide chasm between the availability of true knowledge and the lack of desire for it. And standing in the midst of a field of people with their wide shut, it can be a despairing experience to say, for the millionth time, that the emperor really has no clothes.

In other words, most of the “real” world of the working peeps, is far far away in their heads. Virtualizing reality must have been a long-cherished goal of social engineers, because now, manipulation is easy. In our heads, in our virtual world of TV and Games and Websites (like theses even), we are all incredibly wise, experienced, strong and capable. We live like our heroes in our heads.

While those with eyes that see, are like Neo and his people in the Matrix. For the working peeps, you may as well not exist.

Look at that word Hero for a minute.

Hero =  Valiant, brave soldier, often a martyr

Hero = Made-up persona, impersonating, with skill, another persona, which is further manipulated to give the impression of heightened attributes in said made-up persona, ie. A movie star

To have that word come up without strong context pulls a mind in two absolutely opposite directions, one real blood and gore, the other ketchup and an elastic personality. Hero-worship, such a common trait, yes? Else the cult of celebrity would not exist. I’d say that the word hero (now there are sporting heroes, who fall somewhere between those two extremes) is a polarizer, leaving you un-centered. Think about it.

And then think heroine and heroin. Think addiction. Words that re-verberate, resonate. These are not accidents.

From the writing of an excellent writer, Jim Kirwan:


But addictions are not the exclusive property of drugs, or alcohol or cigarettes. Some degree of ‘addiction’ is present in most of the things that each of us do everyday. Self-deception takes many forms and we have become very skilled at disguising these self-deceptions now for many decades.

The difference between being ‘an addict’ and having just a heightened concentration of interest, can be as fine as the micro-fine-line that exists between love and hate. Our owners know this ‘all too well.’ They’ve been playing us for suckers since long before they commissioned Edward Bernays to create the myth on which his “Century of the Self” was created.

“The conscious and intelligent manipulation of the organized habits and opinions of the masses is an important element in democratic society. Those who manipulate this unseen mechanism of society constitute an invisible government which is the true ruling power of our country.

We are governed, our minds are molded, our tastes formed, our ideas suggested, largely by men we have never heard of. This is a logical result of the way in which our democratic society is organized.” – Edward Bernays


So, for the struggling to stay truly awake, the experiential spiritualist must constantly rub up against the hero/ine addicted masses. I feel like I’m always en guard, in a world that does not feel like it fits and the conviction that we have the collective wisdom to wake up. Death and dying are all very well and seemingly inevitable, especially in this time, when we have taken the act of animal cruelty to and made it a sublime perversion. Of course the scales balance, but in cosmic time.

And this happens to be a tipping point, a pause on one extreme of the pendulum, coming right up. We are in it. An un-fearing look at the world would be too much for most to deal with. Thus, eyes wide shut. I think TV and maybe especially the already upon us HD 3D TV, when I say that.

Thus, escapism abounds. And it has been given great avenues to express itself, virtually. Virtual reality is safer, the reset button always right there. I’ve crashed so many cars in games, sometimes on purpose. 😉

If you find yourself in an existential crisis, where nothing feels right, this could be the reason. I’ve spent the better part of my last week or so in the company of a fascinating father-daughter pair, father a genius and daughter raised by him, bright, sparkling…. And in a constant existential crisis.

The world of thieves, cheats, liars, gallery owners, politics, devious property dealers, half-baked promise makers… leaves them stunned. So against their own grain. “Why would anyone do that???”….. a common refrain.

Likewise my brilliant friend, Somendar Singh, sitting for 15 years with a simple way to improve fuel efficiency and reduce pollution by an order of magnitude. He is indefatigable, with a pile of files on his interactions with all the world’s greatest (Hah!) automotive companies. All rejections, round and round. He was covered by Popular Mechanics too, that mainstream rag.

But his easy solution is too cheap and effective. No profit potential. Sitting in one of his modified cars is like an other-worldly experience. But no dice. So his life is one existential crisis after another.

The example list is long….

So take heart, you are definitely not alone. This is a dark night of the collective soul, and if you are already awake, you are fine. Things will come around again, in cosmic time of course!

Another millennia or two……but time is racing now, ever faster. Not much longer…..



7 Comments leave one →
  1. ohmyheck permalink
    August 24, 2010 2:21 pm

    I am glad to have found this website, via a comment thread on Zero Hedge. Lol! Whodathunk?

    You seem to be expressing what I am experiencing, and I look forward to reading many more of the articles here. Thanks for writing.

    • August 24, 2010 5:29 pm

      Welcome Ohmy!
      Dig into the back-articles if you like, this is not a “temporal” blog like that. And please jump into the dialouge as you feel called.

  2. ohmyheck permalink
    August 25, 2010 3:37 am

    Yes, I have been reading backward. I find this is intriguing, from “Celestine Prophecy”-

    “I have connected with a few amazing people through the blog and I want to see who else is drawn. I have a feeling some will be. More soon!”

    I, for one, very much look forward to this possibility. Your story of the trip through the countryside with La Francaise is fascinating. I wish it were me, though I thoroughly appreciate the amusements the Universe has brought me. But that one was a doozy!

    That said, having spent an embarassing amount of time on U.S. political and economic blogs, “spirituality” does not seem to have much credibility with those who communicate on those types of websites. It is nice to find someone who can traverse the different flavors with flair.

    • August 25, 2010 6:18 am

      🙂 Goo to hear and know Ohmy! I sense that those who are meant to be together at this time are being drawn together. So interesting that Zero-Hedge is a connector for us, eh? And I imagine many people who connect here probably read a similar set of sites (I’m down to five, re-directions not counted and can say with total sincerity that Rense was an eye-opener when I stumbled upon it many years ago!)

      Good fun. And yes, the French Connection was a doozy indeed.

      Serendipity is beautiful!

    • Nadall permalink
      December 27, 2011 12:23 am

      Ohmy, you said it so wonderfully …. someone who can traverse the different flavors with flair … wave-dancer, fire-starter, weaver of con-text adds me.
      Practice. Discipline, yes?

  3. August 26, 2010 3:31 am

    Who among us is not an ARJUNA on the battlefield known as Planet Earth–2010?
    At year’s end, many survivors will proudly be wearing the t-shirt “Survived and Thrived on Planet EARTH-2010!”
    Arjuna is the archetypal spiritual warrior. Through the inexorable force of destiny, this also quintessential earthly warrior is compelled to bring his spiritual attainment onto the battlefield, where he can prove his mettle in the most decisive and dharmic way. So that his name will be forever associated with: One who rose to the occasion in the face of the greatest adversity, and prevailed.

    Fast forward to 2010 and we have the modern-day marketplace where each of us has been thrust onto own own unique battlefield, which will inevitably confront and challenge us to grow and stretch as never before. Our meditation will be tested in the unpredictable and unruly bazaar of life.

    Every sphere of life is bringing us opportunities for spiritual growth, emotional cleansing, mental clarity, intellectual refinement and physical forbearance like never before. Some among us would rather not meet these challenges; and this is where we distinguish ourselves as beacons of light and rays of hope. Whether we play the role of Arjuna or his mentor is entirely up to us. Many will alternate between both, as we empty our vessels and become instruments of the Higher Self.

    We are talking about the last phase of the Galactic Creation Cycle of Mayan Calendrics. Therefore, unprecedented energies are converging which make profound and accelerated transformation on every level possible, and in ways previously unavailable. Truly, the wind is at our back, and gaining strength by the moment, if only we can apprehend the potential and power of this awesome SHIFT-in-the-making.

    Throughout these quite demanding and often harrowing times, our inner Arjuna will continually beckon us:
    If not us, then who?
    If not here, then where?
    If not now, then when?

    2012 is NOW! May each of us emerge from our Arjuna moment with all the faith, and resolve, and courage to do Thy bidding.…-on-the-battlefield-known-as-planet-earth-–-2010/

    • August 26, 2010 12:43 pm

      Greetings and very well said. We are all Arjun indeed, but in this time of con-fusion, we seek Krishna everywhere while he is us, with-in us.

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