Wisdom for Warriors – 1
As recounted by Carlos Castaneda, in Tales of Power:
Don Juan chuckled and lay down, putting his arms behind his head.
“You know exactly what you need”, he said.
I told him that sometimes I thought I knew, but that most of the time I had no self-confidence.
“I’m afraid you are confusing issues, ” he said. “The self confidence of the warrior is not the self-confidence of the average man. The average man seeks certainty in the eyes of the on-looker and calls that self-confidence. The warrior seeks impeccability in his own eyes and calls that humbleness. The average man is hooked to his fellow man, while the warrior is hooked only to himself. Perhaps you are chasing rainbows. You’re after the self-confidence of the average man, when you should be after the humbleness of a warrior. The difference between the two is remarkable.
Self-confidence entails knowing something for sure, ; humbleness entails being impeccable in one’s actions and feelings.”
When I first picked “The Teachings of Don Juan” at the library of the Naval College of Engineering, I knew, from page 1 (or 3) that I had stumbled, again, upon a path that I had traversed before. For anyone thus inclined, I highly recommend the whole series.
Ever since, impeccable-ness, in-wardness, infinity, sex and sexuality, power, plants, animals, spirit, spirits…. all took on special hues for me. Evey non-impeccable action has brought me harsh, grating lessons. Every impeccable action has brought be difficult, priceless ones.
The time to be impeccable is upon us. It is no longer a matter of choice. If you still cannot see the eye of the needle that is fast approaching, I suggest peer a little harder.
The signs are everywhere. Many movements in various spheres of life have a a certain irreversible quality to them. As a system reaches a peak (or trough), we often only see the net effects of mad gyrations about the mean and can get fooled into thinking that all is as it should be.
Meanwhile, with every wild swing, the system is left more and more unstable.
Ear to the ground, eye on the horizon….
How do you solve that Koan?